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3:05 AM`wiish.upon.a.fallin.star; unforgotten.Y

1:56 AM`wiish.upon.a.fallin.star; unforgotten.Y

Exhausted, without the strength to search for the last hope to go on. People vanish into the infinite darkness. As we live on, we lose a little bit more. Shrouded in falsehoods , lies and unknowing facts, I stand frozen to the spot, unable to cry out on what Im feeling about everything.Unknowingly the days pass by and change, without me even realizing how blue the sky really is. I tried to overcome that made-up scheme, we live the present, hoping that my rusted heart begin to beat again! If I can express it all in words and be understand , I can find the rhythm of time and perhaps I could still live my life as usual. How many times have people witnessed my fall, and how many had tried picking me up. I guess I lost count of it since everything started. I live my life wanted to wander to the end of the earth. Believing in myself was what I thought all needed, now I begin my journey but this dispute will probably go on about that which is most precious to me. I've become a rebel and I've overlooked things, even the gentle smiles of strangers.- Everytime I tried a shortcut inside you, I got cut off by unknown facts. I do hope things have gone smoothly for you instead of complications. You can make it just like before, wishes do come true and thats how the word came about =]

1:35 AM`wiish.upon.a.fallin.star; unforgotten.Y

copy and paste.. from zhu's blog =p the day on nicol's birthday..



met the zhus at dhoby ghaut. took a cab down to ginza plaza cos stupid baba say west coast has only ONE mac and it's there. then it turned out to be.. we were at the wrong place. !*&$@! it was at the park's mac. okayyy. and sanyi wasnt there yet. had to rot for 50+ mins. zhu got so bored until she started writing 'aline' all over my notebook with the ijc pen. lol. zhuuuu, actine. =x hahha.partied. some kid scared and bullied nicol. 8 of us, including patricia, started bullying that kid. who ask him....bully people never see the person's backing. we were... 15-22, while that kid was barely 7. haha. he die also dun wan let nicol take the balloon. then when his came over to our side.... we started to play with it. so that guy cant reach. was super funny la. lol. then he was screaming at us. (his parents were there) we didnt care. hahah.went to the west coast playground to play. SOOOOOOOO FUN. i'm still a kid. haha. went to town with zhu, cheryl, andy, darren and my bro. ripped cine off again! i love jas! haha. cos the day before, she ask me go down and pei her. say that 6th floor is haunted cos got 2 people die there before. cousins and i watched robots. YAY! went home aft that.

11:26 PM`wiish.upon.a.fallin.star; unforgotten.Y

pissed off with guys... scram off!!!


went to PS.. slackin at mac...while waiting for my couz to reach .. after passing me the stuff.. going to shaw to buy tickets.. squeeze 7 ppl in the car.. crazy rite.. somemore....he still drive like mad.. =.= everybody was like screamin at him... from tat on.. i tell myself.. i muz learn to drive ..at least next time slack got 2 cars.. =] ..hab our dinner ... and wen to shaw to watch movie.. at 10~~ heheez.. eye 10 ~~ lalalaz.. nice show!! fUnny..!!


hey.. i was saying go as far as possible.. and now.. u got knock down.. i not gonna say anything.. tat's all the sadness u gave me~

1:18 AM`wiish.upon.a.fallin.star; unforgotten.Y

why am i letting chances slipping out of my hands again and again.. is this something good or is it something bad.. but i don't want it to happen again..



having a fun time over nicol's birthday party~ is fun.. but is like kinda weird ..cause is all kids manz.. hahaz.. after on went to cine watch robots.. the cartoon is cool!! heez .. it been a long time when i last went out with them.. =D

1:45 PM`wiish.upon.a.fallin.star; unforgotten.Y

a brand nEw day..~ hOping fOr thE dAe will bE fine.. i tRying to fOrgeT tHe paSt.. hehEez.. cOol.. As leAst i stiLl got kEep in toUch witH vin aNd ken? loLz.. kEn kEep aSking me to go bishAn ite? =x bUt nO waY ? lalalaz~ gO tHerE keNa distUrb bUt him onLy.. beL hAb a nicE triP and taKee cAree.. nO mAttEr wArt i wiLl stiLl sUppoRt u.... i heArd sOme stOry.. aBouT thE bbQ.. eVerythIng gOne weLl.. except fOr thE tAkin phOto paRt.. gOod.. hAppy fOr tHem.. sOo hAvin me thEre or nOt.. iT doesn't mAtTer.. evEn i'm thErE...i gOnna bE like transparent.. loLz.. suet and bel also nOt tHeRe... sAw cx again =.= but i tink i sAw hq tOo..bUt hE nv reply.. =.= @#$%^&* ..


tiS wAsn't a gOod yEar for.. mE.. gOt lots of quarrel.. quaRrel.. with feW ppl le.. =x like my kOr.. jOs.. etc... lalalalaz.. BAD YEAR! =x

12:28 PM`wiish.upon.a.fallin.star; unforgotten.Y

-bell & cher


-bell & cher

-bell and cher


- bell & cher


with specs? o.O hehEez


tis pic carrot sae i look mature? =.=


a snapshot by bel.. look so sad? dun i ? =]

12:35 AM`wiish.upon.a.fallin.star; unforgotten.Y

hMmm.. another fucking day? =x loLz everything doesn't seem right.. enough of torture.. i done more den enough.. wen to gb ytd.. help out.. hahaz.. kinda happy to see them.. they miss me!! heheex.. wen goin back time.. get to see vincent.. so juz hab some chit chat... while on the way to tpy interchange.. toking about wen we gonna watch MOVIE! =x ehh.. i kno my fault .. ytd nite.. wen to meet dan.. hab dinner... cx was on his way to orchard.. and we took the same mrt.. didn't expect to see him... he is kinda shy though .. hahaz.. dun sOoo shy.. soo shy forr wart =x looking forward to go out next time..or maybe perhaps slacking.. anyway study hard wor~ even u are goin in ns soon? =x


tat baba.. tink tat i'm crazy.. toking nonsense~ in msn.. =x well i'm crazy..~ and stop argueing with carrot.. about the christian stuff lar~

7:18 PM`wiish.upon.a.fallin.star; unforgotten.Y

yeAh... life meant to bE tis way.. gOd also dun wanna sAve mE ehh...~ i leave my frenz.. i didn't get in to poly.. i'm not allow to enter private.. i'm force to go to courses tat i dun like.. but yet..i still choose the course i wan... result came out.. get the course i wan.. wen for drawing test~ yea.. sadly .. i failed~! damn.. so mani art student.. no wonder .. i cannot pass =x i so long nv draw.. haiz.. sad wor.. day by day juz getting more pressure.. hopefully she dun call.. she call... i will feel even more depress~ all i could sae.. i'm not happy at all.. pls pls... stop giving me pressure.. i dun wan it .. i habin depression right till the limit..ish more den enough... dun drive me crazy.. i dun wanna go nuts...~ for now.. i juz keep myself one side.. pretending.. i'm another person.. hahaz.. yeah.. gonna busy with my gerz.. girl brigade.. lalalaz.. miss them.. tml got kids camp.. accompany yq.. go.. early wor.. hahaz.. studies fuck cAre lar~ dUn give a damn le.. is i suffer not u guys.. so wart for bother! leave me alone to the lonely world.. being in the darkness.. tat's me~


nth gonna be the same again.. cos my life like fuck.. hahaz.. ish all negative.. nth positive~ i realise i shouldn't be too good at times... cos being too good .. in the end wart i get ish i suffer.. why do i need to care so much... all i could sae.. ish.. bitch stay away.. and live in the darkness.. and remember tat's u..~ hahaz

11:43 PM`wiish.upon.a.fallin.star; unforgotten.Y

anothEr sLacking dae ya... sLacking with dan's group... cOol.. they always fool of themselves.. playing with kids aRound... lOlz..wen home play game.. with stan.. another mOody gUy.. =x cHeer up..


yEah.. tHey hab tHeir bBq on mOndae.. i hOpe thEy hAbin fUn? dUn tHey? hahaz.. yEa.. wAlked tis patH for awhile.. aNd yEt i finaLly rEalise.. i'm nOt welcome .. sO i decided tO leave... well... it wiLl bE much more fUn wiThout me aRound ya? tHankz fOr inviting mE to go.. bUt..yA.. sOrry fOr nOt gOin.. cOs i didn't wan to be the BURDEN in tHeRe.. planning a gathering..tat caUses a burden.. hahaz.. yEa.. a louSy planner! wart u sae ish rite.. i'm a lOusy planner~ oh..ya..u sAe i make use of someone yea? loLz.. it will nEber hAppen again.. if u tinking i'm making used? den i fine with it.. i will admit my fault? u should hab tell me earlier den i should hab left the group.. i appreciate it.... nothing will be the same again.. either would i wan to walk back again..


wOot.. xiao hui gOt a rAbbit for hEr bDae.. sHe sOoo hAppy.. gOod for her.. hOpe she take gOod cAre of it..i hAb nO idEa ..wArt's wRong with gUys recEntly..sO mani gEr prob.. ish..like... weird.. hahaz.. GUYS take it easy manz.. i getting crazy over it too.. one by one.. ger prob.. they dun hab to sae i also kno wart prob le.. hahaz.. well.. wArt i cOuld sae.. iF u reALli like tAt gEr.. gO fOr it.... and rEmembEr nOt tO strEss uRself uP ehh.. iF tHere's aNy misunderstanding.. try to solve it in a nice way... by explaining it nicely.. i dUnno why.. gUys alwaYs aT tHe beri last min... tHey giv uP iSh bEcos thEy duNno waRt tO do? i dun tink tis ish the way.. trY ya bEst k.. dUn gib up.. hOping for miracle~ hehEez.. nothing ish impossible rite.. always give in to gers.. =x lalalalaz.. tat's all i could sae.. aLl thE bEst to u gUys.. dUn sae i nebEr help arh! =x

4:38 AM`wiish.upon.a.fallin.star; unforgotten.Y

nicce cut  =]

1:31 AM`wiish.upon.a.fallin.star; unforgotten.Y

haHaz.. i'm hAppy tat thE bbQ isH setTle.. i decided tO leaVe thE gRoup.. everything wiLl be fine~ =] oh..abOut jOs.. u wouldn't nEed tO cAre aBout mE anymOre cOs i dUn bElongs to thE gRoUp aNymOre.. i'm rite ? sO finally u cAn bE happy le? sincE u wAn everybOdy in tHe gRoup tO bE hAppy.. aNd i'm thE only one..whO isH sad ? aNd u waNna cHeer mE up eh? bUt sincE nOw i'm nOt in tHe gRoUp .. everyoNe iSh hAppy nOw...so i guEss u shOuld bE happy tOo ? =] neithEr dO i waN peOple tO tinK , i'm mAkin uSe oF yOu.. i appreciated for wart hab happen.. i guEss i hAb cLear thE bUrdEn of everyone? everybOdy sHould bE hAppy now =] lalalaz..

11:09 PM`wiish.upon.a.fallin.star; unforgotten.Y

life sEem to be a haRd one... i haB to handle every single thing.. ~ i'm nOt happy at all~ nO one can hElp me.. neither smone can reALli bE thEre forr me.. =]

12:52 AM`wiish.upon.a.fallin.star; unforgotten.Y

 - teaRs..
breakdown..
i hate everybody!

2:28 AM`wiish.upon.a.fallin.star; unforgotten.Y

muz be wondering where am i ritee? guess ba... hahaz... i miss those slackiing days.. =] secondary sch life ish over..

9:25 AM`wiish.upon.a.fallin.star; unforgotten.Y

 once again.. it shall appear..
`- depression

3:45 AM`wiish.upon.a.fallin.star; unforgotten.Y

the guys



the group




the gerz

3:19 AM`wiish.upon.a.fallin.star; unforgotten.Y

arHhh~~ i'm still sad.. how..

3:05 AM`wiish.upon.a.fallin.star; unforgotten.Y

i so stress up.. so depress.. i'm so dead..~ bottle creaking le~ tOo full.. hahaz.. damn... tis ish my veri first time i being so strong..yet so weak~ i gueSs alan ish realli rite.. the stronger i am ..the weaker i am... i'm sad~ i'm sad... i dunnooo wart to do... depression ish back..habin such bad time.. as if i gonna explode.. i wanna jump!!! damn.. i'm so breakdown... yea.. i cried again... over and over again...


it shall neber be the same again... leave me along..

12:45 AM`wiish.upon.a.fallin.star; unforgotten.Y

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