"can i come your house?" sounds familar ? o.O I seriously have no idea why I don't like people coming my house. Finally you get to see how it look like? cozy ? hahaz.. Today woke up at 3pm.. yea..afternoon =x i'm a pig. I understand. Rotting at home all the way until evening? On the com watching anime .. chatting.. my life is boring! =.= went to hq's house together with cx.. rotting over there too..



"beep beep" 1 message received. one after another. =D and yet i didn't even reply. pro right never reply yet got message keep coming in as if i smsing with friend =] "beep beep" for 10 times. so i received a total message of 10. heheez.. Yea i'm trying to get over, i didn't like the feeling of it. It happen once but I wouldn't want it to happen twice~ since it happen twice..there's a very high possibility to happen it again and again.. =] right? trying to get over? perhaps not i'm just gonna throw it in the bottle and hide it.. hahaz.. I have never tried to get over .. because i know i can't.. I'm not gonna cry or cut! i have enough =D I just gonna be strong and smile!

11:45 PM`wiish.upon.a.fallin.star; unforgotten.Y

There's so much happening this month. Probably this is fate =D . I didn't get to sleep on saturday night. Was at my friend's house. Cause i know once I fall asleep .. that's it , I can't attend youth service in church. It been a long time since i attend service...... lalalaz... so.. i decided is a must to go. I set my alarm in my phone at 6.45. hahaz. In the end i also never go, cos i know I go there also sleep =x as well dont go right? =p bleahz... It's morning I went to disturb him and wake him up =D . Reach home at about 9 am. Hq called me at 9.37 =D stated in my phone.. den I ask him to wake me up at 11~ cos I needed meet yiqing at 1+ 2.. accompany her to buy some stuff. hahaz. I was to tired and I went back to sleep after the morning call =p woot i slept until late afternoon. Ken kept msging me to go movie movie.. lolz.. Went out in the evening with bel... shop around in town.. gonna be broke le..





hMmm.. something happen again... maybe i shouldn't pick up the call ? everything will be fine? Have a long talk with hq =.= i called you not because I'm helping him and I'm not siding anyone kkz! got it..~! You are way too sensitive! thinking too much..! I called you because I want you to cheer up. instead you say the problem is between both of you. why must i interfere. I really pissed off and sad when u sae that! kaoz... If i'm really helping him why do i bother to snatch the phone from him! Next time .. i know what to do .. i think ever since you guys know me all this thing happen =D perhaps i'm just a burden ? muhahahaz.. i dun wan you both to be like that just because of a small tiny mini problem =.=

6:46 PM`wiish.upon.a.fallin.star; unforgotten.Y

nOw is... 11.50.. rotting.. i don't understand why must always happen this way.. it sux man! i hate it.. dont force me.. i have my limit.. i'm confuse... feeling so down! tml going for gb..! reachin there by 8.30.. playing wet games.. zZzz.. long time nv see them le.. missing them.. heex... haiz.. my nyaa stuff..dun hab baking ehh.. Zzz.. tml needa settle with yiqing ehh.. hEex.. ! tAt's aLl for today... >.=

11:49 PM`wiish.upon.a.fallin.star; unforgotten.Y

I thought everything gonna be alright.. in fact.. everything was in a mess... =D i deserved it~

1:39 AM`wiish.upon.a.fallin.star; unforgotten.Y

Today will be the day I gonna suffer like hell. No one will ever understand. I'm just a fcuking burden to everybody. You think you care about me? Show me that you really care, don't hide and run away .. do you think that's the way? You are weak! The best everyone leave me. Cause today gonna be a day.. one by one leaving me.. confusion.. depression.. sadness.. tears.. fear.. lonely.. hurt..





kor i don't wanna hear anything from you.. you are juz hurting me till the limit..

1:42 AM`wiish.upon.a.fallin.star; unforgotten.Y

At this time of point why must it happen all together. Is this a test for me? i'm sick of walking through the world of darkness. Feeling totally helpless and trapped within. I couldn't see anything, it's was a pitch of darkness. Shivered silently. I couldn't describe the mix feeling I had. The darkness seemed to suffocate me, destroying all the sense of security i had. The next thing I realised there's tears running down my cheeks. The depression, confusion, pain, sadness, fear ......... The pain pierce through my heart. Headache of confusion. Everything was in a mess. Was hoping someone to be for me like before. But it will never be the same again. I'm in a lost.

12:41 PM`wiish.upon.a.fallin.star; unforgotten.Y

wEn out with my gErz and some cHurch fRenz..suppose to attend church...but.. i slp like pig..cannot make it.. sighz.. shouldn't hav hang off his call... i woke at 10.30 and i meeting them at 11 =.= yes i god damn late... hahaz.. lucky got my daD tO send mE =D wen to meet debbie after lunch at mac.. taking consent form.. woot going for nyaa gold! anybody wanna join me.. wen to down after tat..walking around in a group of 6 ! =D weN home aFter tat.. boring.. den derru cAlled me ask me meet him at compass point.. sLackin with him at starbuck.. zZzz.. he started toking about he tp life... hahaz.. i pinch him like siaO.. yea.. on the way home.. cx called.. wen to meet him.. hav some chat and wen to see hamster =D soo cute~ loLz.. tEr say he gonna teach me cooking, breakdance, guitar and drum .. =] alot arhh..hahaz... ta'ts all for todae!




cHeryL rAwkz!

1:48 AM`wiish.upon.a.fallin.star; unforgotten.Y

wEn oUt wiTh dAn.. i found a job! going for interview ... working in town =D heEx...dEn sAw my cOuz..kAoz.. hE couldn't rEcognize mE..sO sAd.. maYbE 2 yEars nebEr sEe eAch otHeR le ... tAt's wHy .... >.< .. tat's all for the day... in a dAze~ thiNkin of thE pAst .. =p

2:32 AM`wiish.upon.a.fallin.star; unforgotten.Y

morning call from cx.. tHankz =D tOking aBout him aLways make mE tinK .. abOut hanging off my cALl.. zZzz.. wEnt sHoPping aT tOwn.. nOt mUch pEople.. maYbE bEcoS oF exam? or maYbE bEcos of wEekdAy? didn't sEe aNytHing i likE aLsO.. tOo laZy tO sHop =p yEa..i'm laZy bUm ya knO... hEex.. sAw my bEloved mEi aT tpy intErcHangE .. i didn't sAw hEr at firSt.. untiL sHe jUz sMs me..jiE u aT tpy aRh.. dEn i loOk aRound cAnnot sEe hEr.. sO lOng nebEr sEe hEr le..bUt in thE enD manage to fiNd hEr.. bEL wAs like sAying.. i'm ur no 1 bf.. cheryl ur no 2 bf.. hahaz.. tOok lOts of piCs tOdAe.. mUhAhaz.. =p maybe tmL goin dOwn fOr jOb tRaining..aNd not fOrgetting to cOlleCt my stUff aT tOwn.. !! mAybe gOnna woRk.. rUnning oUt oF cAsh rEcentLy.. didn't wAn to gEt cAsh fRom paRent tat's aLl~..

9:13 PM`wiish.upon.a.fallin.star; unforgotten.Y

normal day


slacking
breakfast



afternoon nap



slacking
playgound
cat



slacking
poolside

3:30 AM`wiish.upon.a.fallin.star; unforgotten.Y

never get to sleep .. yAwn~ under lots of pressure... unDer wArt preSsUre.. i dUnno le~ i dOn't kno what's gonna happen next.. but somehow god give me power tat i can predict something bad gonna happen.. at times.. but not all times... but wen i tell dan smth gonna happen he say i tink too much.. in fact it really happen.. he also hab nth to say.. haiz...i dUnno wHethEr is smth gOod or bAd? bUt i dUn wAnna kno too... >.< .. cos it hurts~ hopefully pEople aRourd mE jUz sTop giving mE nEgative thoughts~ i sHould sAy tHey aRe tHinkin tOo mUch..nOt mE~! i juz feel like closing my eyes and fall aslp and nv wake up... hahaz.. sUch a complicated wOrld~ hMm.. jUz now.. dAn dan gOt difficulty breAthing eh.. i wOndEr.. how is hE doin now~ hOpefully hE will bE fine~~ hehEex... i finAlly kno wArt's tHe rEason aBouT beL... sHe is kinda piSsed off ovEr me~ aBout some .... .. . .. .. stuff .. hMmm.. sHe cAre for mE.. aNd i'm worry aBouT hEr... now a dAys.. doc siaO onE.. gib all tHe sAme answEr... it shouldn't be a problem~ hahaz~ i miss my couz~~~~ aRhhh.. i wanna sEe him.. i gEtting cRazy sOon~ =D regrEt tAt dAy nv sit bEside him~ lalalaz.. tHe feeling he gave me .. was like so diff..~ i reaLly gOt sO sHy mEhz.. >.< .. i sEe him i realli damn shy anD teNd to bLuSh? i guEss soOoo..

1:38 PM`wiish.upon.a.fallin.star; unforgotten.Y

few days of staying at home.. finally todae i'm out of my house suppose to collect my cD...bUt sEem like .. i hAb to collEct dUring jUne? eNd of jUne? i tink sO .. wEn out aT 7+ tAke tRain aLl tHe waY tO bOonkEng.. wOot.. jUz rEalise my ezlinK hAb nO mOrE mOnEy le~ mUz toP uP~ mEet dAn aNd gAb goin oFf tO pArklaNe.. lUcky gOt cAr.. or eLsE gOnnA top uP my cArd and leFt wiTh nOt mUch cAsh~ sTarTed pLaying CS! kAoz.. i dUn play cs dE..!!!! zZzz.. dEn wEn on plaYin pOol..~ pLaY like sHit? aT leAst ... i wOn dAn once~ mUhahaz.. gAb tOdae sUdDenly sO prO~... pOorthing.. tml his gF gOin ovErsEa~ wEn on tO sLackk aNd hAb my dinNeR~ dUring tAt timE my mUm kept caLLing.. kaOz~ fEd up sia~~!!! dEn i toT bY sLacking aT my houSe dOwnstAir sHouldn't bE a pRob.. but... shE sTart hEr nonsEnsE again~ bEfore my dAd come dOwn aNd fiNd me~ i gO homE firSt~ tOt gOnna aRgue witH hEr.. bUt in fAct.. i wen in hEr rOom.. sHe juz kEpt quieT anD i wAlk aWay~ i guEss.. tHe moRe sHe controL... tHe moRe i goNna gO against hEr~~~~ yEah.. wArt a dAy mAn!




cHeryL ...yOu sUx !

2:55 AM`wiish.upon.a.fallin.star; unforgotten.Y

kaOz.. yTd waNna blOg...den bloGGer dOwn... dEn i aLso lAzy to bLog le~... tis tWo dAys sTay aT homE rest.. i tinK tmL gEtting animE fRom kOr.. my bOth hAnds shivEring now..cOuldn't typE weLl.. ZZz....dUnno why .. juz did 100 sit ups.. den try to do some push up..cannot eHh.. >.< ... last of all.. i did my freezE!! wOot~ stAble for few mins~ finally~ and 1 more eps to finally my hmi~!!! muhahahaz~ finally .. evErytime kena say.. i slow =x my toopid couz...haven reply my msg since...afternoon..~ i tink shE stuDy tiLl siAox le~ tat's all for todae..~

12:27 AM`wiish.upon.a.fallin.star; unforgotten.Y

muHahaz.. eviL pic of mine~

11:22 PM`wiish.upon.a.fallin.star; unforgotten.Y

Yawn.... Zzz.. todae got morning call from hq.. cos i asked him to.. but i very lazy wake up.. kept on sleep back.. heheex... when down to school to get my cert, kaoz.. the school getting so strict.. the bloody guard "jason" still wanna check my ic ... but not bad ehh.. his working place upgrade le.. got shelter..got radio.. even got assistant to help him =x i tink so.. hehheex.. he having good life ...sit there shake leg.. den saw gab .. he say me ah lian.. kaoz.. attitude him sia~... but at least he say.. i become more pretty mahahahaz.. =x woot teachers still remember my name~ =D is something good ba.. maybe after some days i going back again.. i wanna meet my meimei.. miss them lots.. i think i will going back quite often.. cos..maybe going back and help out in GB!!..



went to town with vanus and ken... collect vanus's specs at hereen..called bel..ask her whether she is doin well anot... but.. seem like.. everything seem so diff.. i dunno wart's wrong with her either ..i juz dun feel right.. but at least i'm happy she getting so much closer to wj..hope she is doin welll in her exam... get well soon bel.. i will be there for you wheneva u need me! =D hab lunch at cine foodcourt.. wheneva i step in to cine make me tink of my job..i wan my job.. =x heheez.. after lunch.. wen up and hab some pool games.. playing like shit.. dunno wart i aiming.. i say right go to left.. siaoz one sia~.. lolz.. at cine all the way sms with cx..he seem to be very tired..tat ken keep on take video and pic..tio pai..ended up i take his phone i take myself.. later on reb join us.. after a few games .. they hab to meet rach ba.. den i hab to meet bf .. bring he see doc ehh.. meet him le.. hab dinner wen home.. haiz.. kinda moody.. for no reason i get all the attitude .. kaOz..





reach home check my com.. some files wen missing tat i can't even start my window... wen to setup xp.. and realise.. my com is blank... left with nothing everything gone... but in the end i found all my files!!! muhhahahaz.. happy ehh.. =x and realise.. my sound card got prob.. sad! now no sound..~~~~

12:04 AM`wiish.upon.a.fallin.star; unforgotten.Y

woot.. feeling so.. refresh.. juz bath =D ..todae wen to meet my bf.. it been quite long never meet up le.. hehEez.. i woke up quite late.. suppose to meet at 3 de.. guess wart i woke up at 3+ =x muhahaz.. ended up meeting at around 5.. wen down to down to shop for his clothing.. my treat! see i so good.. walk about didn't see anything i like also~ so.. nv buy anything.. juz window shopping? walk all the way to parklane~ play pool~ at ps there..being appoach about the model agency again~ same de~ zZz.. oh ya...ytd the agency called me asked me to come down for interview blablabla.. i juz ans ya ya ya.. but i not going lolz.. wOot.. so hAppy.. finally todae i win him =x one of the game is like... i left with 1 ball and he left 7balls~!!! lalalaz.. =x he say he can chase me but too bad =x kaoz... the cue stick cut my finger... damn wood.. =x den started to bleed... pain.. >.< .. somemore he wen to press it the wood wen in... i juz removed it.. pain pain~ hmm..the game was about to end gab come down le.. they played the last game.. den wen to play lan!!! kaoz~ ask mE play cs =.= hahaz.. anyhow play lor.. die and die~ =x at least i play better den my bf!! muhahahz!! i juz read cx's blog~ den realise todae they wen to parklane too!! loLz.. vanus called me... ask me gO out tml...collect cert.. den eat buffet...den den watch movie~ lalalaz.. the cert also useless~

3:37 AM`wiish.upon.a.fallin.star; unforgotten.Y

"Everything seem to be so fine" ..



Leave me alone.. I'm mentally breakdown..



Bottle up.. once again and again~ woot~ I feel the pain again~



desolation__

2:27 AM`wiish.upon.a.fallin.star; unforgotten.Y

gosh.... i'm so god damn depress... can someone save me... somehow one day i can go crazy~ pls pls... stop... giving me pressure.. i dun wanna kno anything! give me a break man! i really can't cope with it anymore... i dun wish to torture and hurt myself again and again~

10:15 PM`wiish.upon.a.fallin.star; unforgotten.Y

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